9 years ago I was at a point in my life that I felt I needed a personal relationship with GOD, so I began searching… Shortly after I made that decision Brian passed and I was in utter disbelief that in a time that I needed GOD he took my only confidant here on earth. Brian was more than my nephew, he was my son, brother and best friend… I was so angry at GOD. I couldn’t understand why He would take Brian from his wife, daughter and the rest of his family leaving a horrible void. There wasn’t anything that didn’t remind me of him which made it all that more difficult to focus on God and what I needed to do. So I decided cut God out …What!? I know…. I felt that I could fix myself and heal all wounds with time. Well…. How about not. Without getting in too much detail my life did actually begin moving in the right direction. What I thought was a perfect life with my family was, but my relationship with God was not. I had been telling my husband that we needed to go to church and he said ok but his actions weren’t quite reflecting that. Christmas eve I went to CLC alone while my family stood home. I can’t even begin to explain the overwhelming feeling of imminence to God that evening. As though He knew that I felt alone and he wasn’t going to allow his child to feel that way. Soon after, my husband followed =) We began attending CLC and loved it, but then I began getting sick almost one thing right after another. I was truly blessed with a small group of women that were beyond inspirational , Roxanne, Tina, Chandy, Elda, Melissa and Rebecca. They were there for me and my abundance of questions… Each of these women gave me something, that when I felt like saying, WHY? Why was God allowing me to be sick, did I take too long to seek him out? Why was I being made to suffer physically? But I learned that it wasn’t about me! What? How do you figure? Well God has a plan for me and if I couldn’t put aside me for something better, how selfish would I be? I learned that with faith anything is possible. My body was extremely weak but I did what I could and praised GOD constantly. No matter what I was feeling I knew that HE wouldn’t leave me. Over a year and a half passed and doctors still didn’t know what to do to fix my physical ailments. I decided to go deeper and began a fast and in that time I knew that God was going to “fix”me, I didn’t know when or how… but I knew he was! About two months later at a Miracle Service the Evangelist asked if anyone needed healing to come up to the alter I was praising God at that moment…. I told God that I already knew he was going to heal me and was claiming that He had already began…but if He felt that I should go up to the alter I would go. No sooner after I said that Rene called my husband and I up, I grinned as I knew God was saying you need to go the alter. Never having experienced anything like that, it was almost like when you reboot your computer. I had been rebooted and right on time! I was scheduled for surgery the next morning, and I feel better than I expected. In a few weeks I will have my blood drawn to see If my body has began to store RBC’s in my bone marrow. I have no doubt that that will be the case, thank you JESUS!!!! I’ve realized that once god gets his hands around me he will never let go. I pray that if your reading my testimony realize that God WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU OR FORSAKE YOU, out of the bad things that happen in your life, Good things will happen you just have to be patient. <3
